Lisa Hood

I am so angry and I know that I have the choice of letting it go or holding on to it.   I feel too stressed trying to accomplish too much and it’s not filling my spirit, but depleting it.  Now that we’ve taken on the added commitment to Create a Blog, Peoplefuel and Membership Sites, I feel very overwhelmed.  I need to know what my role is and to have specific direction to add value.  

I can’t work fast enough or long enough or hard enough to cover all the bases. While I’m totally on board with his intention; I am not ok with the affect A’s focus is having on our family or our relationship.  I’m angry that A isn’t contributing to our family life.   In his mind, he is working incredibly hard to make a future for us, but in my mind, he is neglecting his responsibilities.  The fact that we talked about it and he knows my feelings just makes it worse.  He totally disregarded what I said and continued to do what he wanted.  He spends 16 hours a day on the computer when he’s not at work.  In the meantime there’s so much that needs to be done around the house and I can’t write, help with the web sites and pick up the slack around the house.  I need to make choices and stick too them, rather than being angry, which means reprioritizing my time.

1.  Spend time with my family

2.  Take care of my health, exercise, my diet and my personal appearance

3.  Simplify - I need to get rid of all the clutter in our house and in my mind. That includes taking care of the issues I’ve repeatedly asked A to take care of. 

4.  Hire help - If A wasn’t here, what would I do?  I would be self reliant and if I couldn’t get something done, I’d hire someone else to do it.

5.  Write my book - I write everyday, and starting tomorrow, I will devote most of that time to my books. 

6.  After my writing, my priority is Fictionway because I can use it to promote my writing and sell my books; PeopleFuel and then Icebarrel.  

I know that every difficult situation in life is meant to be a learning experience for my soul.  I think the reason I’m struggling right now is because I’m meant to learn self reliance.  I need to take care of things myself and know that I can be fine on my own.  If he wasn’t in my life, I’d have no choice but to get things done for myself and so that is what I’m going to do now.  I just need to figure out how to let go of my resentment over it.