Lisa Hood

So far the New Year is off to a good start.  K has been doing especially well lately. In don’t know if it’s the medication or just determination but her attitude has done a 180.  I’m sure some of it is just growing up. T is in that tough time right now. She is easily annoyed or her feelings get hurt, but she’ll withdraw where K exploded.  I’m more like T; I just want to be left alone to get over it rather than a big confrontation. So her turbulent teens aren’t nearly has difficult.

A has been working hard on the sites, making the most of his vacation time. Things have felt strained with him lately, but it may be me. Although I think he is under so much pressure to produce, it may be getting to him. He’s only anxious to start making decent money so he can quit working at V. The hours and bureaucracy are outrageous. Now we know why they have an 80% churn. 

I’ve been feeling stressed about sites too, which is stupid, because they’re supposed to fun. If they’re fun then I’ll keep doing it. But I tend to make things a “chore” rather than something enjoyable.  I have all these goals; to write multiple articles a day, to build links coming into the site, to write my book, go to school, work, home…oh my God, no wonder I’m stressed out.

Don’t get me wrong, I know that having goals; short term and long term, are necessary. I just think I over it do it sometimes. I try to do too much and then I get burnt out. I really don’t want that to happen because I love to write. I don’t want to extinguish that flame. Not only that, but I enjoy what I’m writing about: inspirational and motivational topics, TV, celebrity gossip, books, movies, and writing itself. I just need to find the happy medium between accomplishment and enjoyment.   

I don’t have a real clear vision of where my writing is taking me.  I have absolute faith that A will get his sites to a point of generating revenue, but what will my writing generate?  I dreamed of hitting it big as a novelist, when I wrote Betrayal and Revenge, but that was 12 years ago.  OMG!  I can’t believe the time has gone by so fast.   My dream has faded quite a bit since then. I’m not nearly as naïve and I know I can’t rely on a one in a million shot at wealth and fame. I have to rely on a PLAN, daily steps to get from point A to point B.  I just don’t know what point B is.

K actually got me inspired to start a new project. I’m going to work on a YA novel “Slipping Sideways” and a semi autobiographical book, I’m thinking of “The Somewhat True Writings of a Wannabe”.  I need to keep Fictionway & Icebarrel going strong, but I’m not going to do the WP stuff anymore.  It’s just too much.

Next week I start school. I’m only taking one class this semester: Accounting - so I only have two to go!  After 10 years - finally I’m going to have a college degree. I should be able to get it done by the end of the year, depending on the course schedule. We’ll see.